Dead End .:. Enjoy The Summerdays!!!

Thursday, May 1, 2003
Hideee....!!!!!

Today is May 1, and tomorrow is Hide's memorial Day.... *sigh* Hide-chan.... Okaachan had bought big lilies, and put them in a vase, and placed them in the middle of the livingroom. Hehehe... The lilies are expensive... *another sigh* I want roses, but okaachan said they are so Yoshiki (huh? I mean Rosiel-sama not Yoshiki)... And somehow, lilies remind me to Alexiel... ^_^

... waiting for Hide's memorial Day... *doki-doki* actually I wanted to change the layout to the past Hide version (since next day is hide's memorial day), but I have no time... (ahaha) Hehehe that's why I'm still using this YukixShuichi layout.

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Anyway, I'm going to skip my school tomorrow!!! No, it's not because of hide's memorial day at all (hehe), but it's because we are going to go to my uncle's house @ Bogor~~ *evilgrin*

Wahh... Next Saturday, 2 bands at our school are going to perform, but I don't know where would the show be held... J-chan said he's going to, erm, support the band (like CHEERLEADERS, J-chan?), but he hasn't sure yet. Hummm...

[ The ice cream melted at 09:59 p.m. ]

Wednesday, April 30, 2003
I'm back!

Yo-hoo, Vaccahn is baack!!!! *raises hand* Four days offline and, as what as I have expected before, there were 67 new mails in my mailbox... *collapses* Hhh.... *wipes sweat*

Gomen, I haven't reply your mail, ma chérie... I'm kinda blank XD XD But I'll try to reply soon, ne?

*sees the table in bedroom* Oh my Gackt... I haven't return J-chan's history book... I've borrowed that book since 2-3 weeks ago, maybe... *desperate laughs*

I joined another blog crew... I'm Char there... Nggak boleh nyabet sekaligus dua yah, Kou? Ehehe... Gue mau jadi Amuro juga nih... *devilish grin*

I'm kinda addicted to ONE PIECE now... Really love those 4: Rufee, Zorro, Nami and Usopp~~ :D

[ The ice cream melted at 11:36 p.m. ]

Saturday, April 26, 2003
I'm So Happy!!!!1

Yo-hoo minna!!! I'm journaling/bloggin/whatever-lah from Thalia-neechan's place... Hehehe....

I don't know why, but I'm so happy ^_^ maybe it's because I got those JRock mags from Kinokuniya Book Store a few days ago.

Starting next Monday, the juniors (I mean the 1st class of Junior High at my school) are gonna have afternoon classes too... *ugh* I don't really like this year's juniors... Chikushou... But, it's only one week (phew!)

Finally you replied my mail!!! Gahaha!!!

Domeng, I can access your site from my cousin's comp... But I'll link you btw ^_^

Gonna update...

[ The ice cream melted at 08:28 p.m. ]

Thursday, April 24, 2003
Kinda disappointed...

Actually yesterday J-chan asked me to meet him at the school. He said he has something to talk... and when I asked him just to tell it, he said he'd better say it at school. Hehehehe..... *jumps around* Ureshii da yo!!! We decided to meet at school at 11 a.m.

And something kinda disappointing happened. I did go to school, and so did him. Buuuuut.... WE DIDN'T MEET!!!!!! (insert 'ta-dah' sound here) *laughs desperately*

Okay: my awful school have 2 gates, left and right, first and second, to get in and get out. I was waiting for him, kept looking at the first gate. And he was coming from the second gate, which means HE DIDN'T SEE ME AND I DIDN'T SEE HIM FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!! *bangs head to the wall* AAARRGGGHHH..... This is so anime-like, Bloody Hell!!!!

*ahem* It was kinda disappointing... I didn't meet my Gackt... Waaahhhhhhhhh.....!!!!!! *cries* ... I was kinda mad at him (padahal kita sama-sama bego, hehe)... Gomen ne J-chan....

Let's change the topic. I accidentally met Henny when I was waiting desperately for J-chan at school ^_^ then, Okaachan picked us up and we three went to Green Door beauty salon, hehehe.... (insert Rosiel-like laughter here)

Another topic!!! I just watched AKIRA DVD yesterday!!!! I think it rated NC-17 for th violence and blood and... Well, blood. I wanna read the manga now ^_^ am gonna steal Thalia-neechan's.... (again, Rosiel-like laughter)

I NEED MOON CHILD PHOTOBOOK AND THE MAKING DVD FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!

[ The ice cream melted at 10:44 p.m. ]

Tuesday, April 22, 2003
just stole this... :P

I just stole this kind of survey from ma chérie.....

01. Who was the first J-rock Band you heard?:
The Yellow Monkey. My cousin poisoned me...

02.Who's the most recent J-rock Band you've heard?:
Hide, I think. Okaachan...

03. Who's your favorite J-rock Band?:
L'Arc~en~Ciel...

04. Name 5 other Bands you Like:
Gackt, GLAY, hide, X Japan, The Yellow Monkey. Yeay!

06. Are you a fangirl/boy?
Yeah

07. If yes, of Who?
Lots of pretty guys

08. Do you cosplay?
I want to...

09. Who?:
Hyde, Tetsu, hide

10. Do you like Dir en grey?
I bought the DVD and it was good

11. Are you a Toshiya fangirl?
Totchi!! No, am kidding. Not really.

12. How about Kaoru?
Kao!! Yey!!!

13. Die?
*faints* he's cool

14. Kyo?
Haha... He's cool, too

15. Shinya?
He's pretty

16. What's your favorite Deg song?
Forgot the title. Gomen. I think it's JESICCA

17. Do you like visual bands or non-visual bands?
I do ^_^

18. What's the first J-rock song you heard?
"Tactics" by The Yellow Monkey

19. What's the last song you heard?
"Beauty & Stupid" by Hide :)

20. Do you buy J-rock magazines?
I'm a JRock mag customer

21. What's your favorite?
Err... BPass and PATi-PATi and UV...

22. Have you ever been to any J-rock concerts?
I haven't. Fuck you.

23. Which ones?
FUCK YOU!!!!

24. What would you do if you saw any J-rocker walking down the street in your town?:
I'll froze for a second and in the next second I'm already dragging em to my house

25. Which three Jrockers are you most in love with?:
Hyde, Tetsu, Gackt

26. Which three Jrockers would you most love to meet in person (Dead or alive)?
Hyde, Tetsu, Gackt. Duh...

27. What are the three things you would like to say to/ask them?:
1) "Teach me how to play bass, Tetsu!"
2) "I wanna fuck you, Gackt"
3) "Hyde please don't leave Tetsu"

28. Which three Jrockers can you relate to most?
Hyde, Tetsu, Gackt (again?)... and hide!!!

29. Which three Jrock songs do you constantly replay?
WHITE OUT (TETSU69), DAMAGE (hide), neo universe (L'Arc~en~Ciel)

30. Do you currently have a Jrocker computer background?
Yeah, the current is Hide. I made it...

31. Which Jrocker would you most like to get fashion/makeup advice from?
Erm... Mana and Hisashi and Hide

32. Do you read Jrock fan fiction?
Of course

34. How many Jrock MP3s do you have?
A lot. Hehe

35. And, finally, if you could sleep with any three Jrockers, who would they be?:
ONLY THREE???? Well, Hyde, Tetsu, Gackt. All at once.

[ The ice cream melted at 12:12 a.m. ]

Monday, April 21, 2003
*phew*

Current music: Psyche by Hide

Arrgh... I don't know what exactly to write... *stretches back* But I think I do have a story to tell.

Today me, Okaachan and my brother Joey went to my grandma's house. She's out and going to back on next Wednesday. We went there to clean her house. And you have to know that her house is huuuge... It took such a long time to clean her house, the backyard, etc. Oh yeah, my grandma has 3 dogs: Esco, Smalley (is it correct?) and Vodka. They love rambutans ^_^ especially Esco... It could peel the rambutan by itself and then eat it. Smart, huh?

Ergh... Finally the Easter Holiday is over (no!!)... I will start to go to school again tomorrow... Dammit!!! And I'm gonna have 2 tests... *bangs head to the wall* ARGH!!!! I need longer holiday!!!!! And I think all my friends thinks so, too. Gah.

Tomorrow I have to bring my guitar (not mine, it's Thalia-neechan's.. I borrowed it from her) to the school. For the music subject *sigh* ... I don't like the teacher. Humph.

Ah... I'm facing the painful truth: the school starts again tomorrow *cries* Ah today I supposed to go to Gonzaga, having a basketball practice, but I didn't go there. I'm kinda lazy, besides, I have to go to my grandma's house.

J-chan said he's gonna ring me tomorrow *cheers* It makes me kinda spiritful to wake up...

Edit #1: my Senpai is Die in the Dir en Grey BC now ^_^

Edit #2: So finally I closed my quiz. Here's the top 10 highscores:

1) VARZIEL, THE GOD, HAHA [80]
2) kha-je [80]
3) AuRorA [76]
4) turniptopia [74]
5) numpang lewat [72]
6) numpang lewat lagi... [70]
7) Yuppi [68]
8) lynnchan [68]
9) san-san [68]
10) guess who? [68]
Hehe, I don't know who's that 'kha-je' person. And AuRorA... I know you're cheating. Congrats, ma chérie, you got 68 ^_^. Yuppi and Turniptopia are my cousins. And I think the rest is... AuRorA. Who else!!!!

[ The ice cream melted at 11:06 p.m. ]

Sunday, April 20, 2003
Happy Easter, Minna!!!

Yeah, Happy Easter everybody ^_^ Well, I didn't go to the church because... Here, I'll tell you the story:

Yesterday was my cousin's graduation. Of course we had a party. We had a party at a restaurant named Payon. Then, after the party, we go to my house. Well, not all of them, but it was... enough to make loud noises. :P

And yes, we had KARAOKE!!!! Again and again... *sighs* I don't remember when we exactly started the karaoke, but me and Thalia-neechan finally stopped at 8 a.m. Great, huh? XD And then, around 7-8 p.m., Okaachan turned on GLAY and we started to sing again... But it was just my family and Thalia-neechan that still staying.

Around 3 or 4 a.m., me, Okaachan and Thalia-neechan started to sing JRock songs. I was kinda amazed that I can sing Crucify My Love nicely... *LOL* and then Rusty Nail... DRAIN... and lastly, when it was just me and Thalia-neechan, it's L'Arc~en~Ciel's turn... Hehe... I was trying to dance like Hyde in winter fall clip, and Thalia-neechan laughed... (am I that funny if am trying to... dance??)

Now I think I lost my voice.. *clears throat* Oh yeah, just done 2 graphics today. Gotta post it later.

Edit:Update my Daily Reads and added Kuricchan. ^_^ I love your site, girl.

Edit #2: I've uploaded those graphics I've done. Here they are:
• Gackt holding a gun
• Blue Hisashi

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Friday, April 18, 2003
Nyah

Nee... I'm here, at Thalia-neechan's house... The comp uses cable modem and I'm so happy because it's fast fast fast~~ (cos am using dial-up at my house... *sad*)

I'm still happy that the commenting system is enabled ^_^ you guys can leave comments (shouts) now!! *happy*

I've said that I'm gonna make a personal site... am currently doing the header, which would be featuring Yoshiki ^_^... But maybe I'll use Laruku.

Edit: Just updated my daily reads. Added Yani and Yuki ^_^

Edit #2: I have to repair something in the commenting system... gomen.

[ The ice cream melted at 07:59 p.m. ]

Friday, April 18, 2003
hungry....

Gggh... I'm feeling hungry at 01:15 a.m.... Nice isn't it?? Hmm... I think I'm going to eat after this... *stomach growls* Hahaha... (desperate laughter)

Oh yeah, 3 days ago, I just watched The Omen III: The Final Conflict. And... Damien died... *cries* I don't like the ending... It seems it's too easy! Humph... *pouts* And he was being killed by a woman. Standard, huh...

Btw, in the story, this woman (who kills Damien), has a son, Peter. And this boy is sooooooooo cute!!!!! Kawaii, kawaii, kawaiiiii~~!!!!! I think he's more kawaii than the little Damien. Hehe... *hearts* And his hair was nice~~ Woo~~

Maa... I think am going to make a personal site... ^_^

Edit: Welcome, Setsuna!! :) Rosiel was still trying to wake Alexiel... :P And I hope Rosiel-sama wouldn't kill you ^_^ Hehe, Setsuna is yours now, Yuki.

Edit #2:I've enabled the commenting/shouting system!!! Thanks to noipo.org, I'll link you back later!!!

[ The ice cream melted at 01:15 a.m. ]

Monday, April 14, 2003
>:P *curses*

Argh!!! What the fuck is going on with Hide the G3 or DNet?? Oh no, Hide G3, don't cry... No... I didn't mean to... XP But I really don't understand what the hell on earth is going on.... I also can't access to OSS and it means I won't be able to go to Jiru-neechan's blog. Is the server currently down or what? Or is it just me? Fuuuck!!! *more curses* Can someone, who is an OSS member, tell me what's happening? Erggg.... because I feel like Hell!!!!

Look, I took some tests...

cold.. or are you?
You appear cool and calm, but really you have many bottled emotions inside. Besides that, you are dead sexy.
Find out what bishonen you are.

*lets out a Rosiel-like laughter* So, I'm Kira!!!! Look, Senpai, I'm Kira... *Rosiel-like laughter is still audible* Hahaha... I think I'd never be a ROSIEL, no matter how hard I've tried... *giggles*

I'm just watching a bad dream I'd never wake up from.
Find out what anime bad boy you are.

Yo-hoo.... am Spike~~!!!! XD XD I like him enough... Not bad, mm-hm.

Okay, can anyone solve my prob? *points up* about the Butterfly's Sleep...

Fo the Angel Santuary BC, we have The Angel of The Water AKA Gabriel/Jibrielle now... We have a GIRL, finally!! *burning glare* NO, MY LORD ROSIEL ISN'T A GIRL FOR FUCK'S SAKE!!!!!!!!! Hehe. Welcome, Jibrielle/Gabriel!!! ^_^ After a big dealing between the Angels, finally Rosiel-sama let you join XD... No, it's a boring joke. Seriously, welcome, man ^_^ I've linked you.

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Saturday, April 12, 2003
happy belated birthday + new layout

... TO MECKO-NIICHAN!!!!!!!!! *hugs* Sorry, I forgot to send you a SMS yesterday on 1 a.m.... Gomen ne!!!!!

~~I'm preparing the new look... ^_^~~

Yes, am not preparing anymore!!! It's the BRAND-NEW LOOK!!!!!! *cheers* Now, the smilies images look 'very different' since the main color is lime green... :P

I don't know what's wrong... Hide G3 is so fucking slow!!!! *bangs Hide G3* FUCK!!!!!! And I can't download CMs and clips.. and... many more. I feel so fucked up!!!!

[ The ice cream melted at 10:46 p.m. ]

Thursday, April 10, 2003
DAMIEN!!!!

Yes, it's Damien. Damien Thorn. If you don't know who he is, he's the main character in the film entitled The Omen. The Omen I, II, and III, but I haven't watch the third yet... I just watched the 2nd last Tuesday ^_^ The Omen tells a story about a kid named Damien, son of the devil, who being adopted by a rich family. I like this film!!! Yay!!! And, no, it's not because the '666' number...

It's because the Damien Thorn is ssoooooooo kawaiiiiii!!!!!!! XD Wuwuwuw~~

Tomorrow is Mecko-niichan's birthday... *insane laughter* GOTTA POUR WATER ONTO HIS HEAD!!!! YEAH!!!!! XD XD Heh heh he he... >:)

We have the same allergies, man!!! But it's not an allrgy anymore for me... I'm already addicted!!!

EDIT
Since someone is asking me to tell about my Okaachan... *smiles to Jiyo-senpai* Here, I write some things about her: she's unique... I mean, it's kinda hard to find a mother who is crazy about HIDE and ATSUSHI and TERU and the other JRockers. It's kinda hard to find a mother who's crazy about JRock, hehe. And she dislikes JPop like Ayumi or SPEED or Puffy (I like Puffy though). She prefers JROCK, haha XD!!! She said, she hates those JPop girls because their voices are sucks... *burning glares at ELT's Kaori* But she likes Judy and Mary ^_^

That's it, Senpai ^_^ Want more??

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Sunday, April 6, 2003
DVDs again?!

Yeay, today I woke up @ 2 p.m :P.... and some kind of band-wannabe was performing near my house. Hopelessly, they were sucks. Haha. They sang a Cranberries song, Promises. Well when they sang it, the girl's voice was good enough, but the male's ... Oh well, just forget it.

Finally I made that Yuki-Shuichi wallpaper *points left* it's replacing my Alexiel WP. Heehee... Okaachan didn't complain, instead she said it's cute!!

Oh yeah, we went to Ratu Plaza... actually we wanna eat at bakmi GM but it was closed *curses*. So, we went to Ratu plaza. We spent time mostly at Carrefour there, and buying DVDs (again). Bought Spirited Away or Zen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi again. And I found Yami no Matsuei DVDs!! It was 3 DVDs. But I didn't buy it because I don't wanna watch anime... and Lisa-chan said it's so yaoi *grins*... Tsuzukiii.... XD XD

My bro bought The End of Evangelion DVD... but I don't think that he would understand the whole film. XD. Okaachan bought Akira Kurosawa's film: Kagemusha and the other one.. I forgot the title. Something with 'fortress' in it...

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Saturday, April 5, 2003
Speech!?

Nggg..... My Indonesian teacher gave us another fucking homework... making a speech text about smoking between teenagers. Gaahhhh!!!!! I hate this kind of homework TOO MUCH!!!! Especially it mean we would have to perform that speech....

*rolls on the floor* ---> stressed out

I HATE SPEECH THINGS!!!!

Grmblgrmblgrmbl.... Maybe J-chan can enjoy this... He's kinda good @ this topic... but ME!?!?! I'm so fucking hopeless in speech things...!!!!! *cries* Gggh.... Chikushooooouu~~!!!!!!!

Oh yeah, just realized that I'm so greedy in "making layouts and wallaper"... ahaha... I'm thinking about making a new wallpaper featured Shu-chan and Yuki ^^ but Okaachan may dislike it... well, they're yaoi pairing... a VERY FAMOUS yaoi pairing.

Last word... I hate speech...!!!!!

[ The ice cream melted at 10:35 p.m. ]

Friday, April 4, 2003
Hellraiser...

Hellraiser reached chapter 4... *cheers* If it's done, I'll place it somewhere here in my blog, but PLEASE, you are warned!! Don't say I didn't warn you; it's yaoi, and if you're not a yaoi fan please don't read it, or you'll feel queasy... Hahaha...

Still can't visit otakumail... I wish there's no email sent there.

Made a wallpaper today^^ it's Alexiel *points left*... Actually I've made a lot of wallpaper, but it's my current wallpaper... Mnyaha.... :D

I'll post Hellraiser soon...

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Thursday, April 3, 2003
Bae Yong Joon/Jun or Vic Zhou haircut!?

Current music: NEW DAYS DAWN by HYDE

I'm hearing Doihachiro's songs because I haven't listen to his songs these past days... I was always listening to Tetsu's songs or Gackt's... or GLAY's...

Yeah, the tagboard is back!! Finally I know how to handle this baka thing... Phew... Hehehe, it changed its colors too....

And, oh, since now I'm addicted to "making BCs"... I've done X Japan BC down there.... Like what I've said, Hidechan is mine.... (insane laughter) Hah ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!! And I'm addicted to "making layouts" too!!!!! I've just done this Hide layout and now I want to make an Alexiel... Gehehe....

My hair is getting longer... Well, I want a Tetsu-like haircut, so I'll have to grow it. Now I look like Bae Yong Joon/Jun and/or Vic Zhou of F4!!! *groans* Hmm... actually they aren't that bad... hehehe... Look, my hair is kinda similiar with them:

For the people who may cannot recognize them, they're (left) Bae Yong Joon/Jun, and (right) Vic Zhou... I'm posting their pics because I don't have my own pic with this Vic-like hair, hehe

Because I'm wearing glasses, my friend said I look like Bae Yong Joon/Jun... but my other friend said I look like Vic. And the another one said I look like the one who stars in a movie called "Tomorrow"... What's Tomorrow?? Hehe... *innocent eyes*

But J-chan (u know who's J-chan, right...?) said me looks better with this haircut... I mean, I'm not spikey and he likes it.

*blushes*

Myahaha..... XD

Because of my current haircut, everytime I see Vic and/or Bae Yong Joon/Jun pics, I'm always smiling... or pointing at the pics and say, "That's me..."

EDIT I don't know what's happening between Hide G3 and otakumail.... Gggggghhh......!!!!!!! *curses*

[ The ice cream melted at 11:54 p.m. ]

Wednesday, April 2, 2003
Happy belated April Fool's

Yeah, happy belated April Fool's day.... Ehehe.... I forgot to write this when I was writing yesterday's entry (now in Archive)....

Disabled the tagboard for a moment; because it is the thing which made my page screwed. And I haven't make some comments section yet... Chikushou....!!!! *swearing*

Maybe I'll return the tagboard later...

[ The ice cream melted at 01:17 a.m. ]

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personal datas
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spikey-headed me Name: Neo Varziel
Birth: June 08, 1989... same date as Teru, the vocalist of JRock band GLAY
Sign: Gemini
Age: 14, this year
Location: Indonesia
Breed: alien
Hair: still reddish, but it grew longer and now me loox like F4's Vic Zhou or Bae Yong Joon
Likes: Hide The G3, drawing, art, JRock, anime, yaoi, lemons, internet, my plushie, my crush (;P), freaky hair, sleeping, computer, mac, nokia, karaoke (new!), swearing, Damien Thorn (The Omen)
Currents: 2nd year junior highschool. Having a very, very huge crush against a "Gackt" @ the school. Plays the guitar sometimes. Has done some nice drawings and/or graphics-- or at least me thinks so

list of wishes
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to go to Japan
iPod
my own computer *sigh*
to be a mangaka
lots of money
an earring like Rosiel-sama's
Tenshi Kinryouku vol. 20

wallpaper
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If you want this WP, email me and I'll give it to you

layouts

Features Eiri Yuki and Shindou Shuichi from the yaoi anime Gravitation ^_^. Done in Photoshop 5, HTML coded by me in Hide the G3... This layout is very, very simple, so don't laugh... X) And yes, I love ice creams. Yum.